Can i JUST SAY

I'm SO EXCITED TO SEE EMILY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and

I got a part in It's a Wonderful Life:a Live Radio Play !!!

and

ok,that's all for now.

:)

Happy is as happy does

I've realized in the past few days that happiness is truly a choice.  And I have chosen it's high time to be happy. I'm letting go and letting God. It's really rather freeing to let go of control,and just live life. nothing radical has happened in my life since then,except I've had a lot better of emotions. Frankly,I'm sick of feeling like crap,of crying,of wasting my time and tears. I choose to be happy. God has given me so much,it's time I act as blessed as I am. Of course,I'm human,and most likely in a few days I'll be back to complaining about everything. But I'm really trying to rely on God's all sufficient grace,and really...that's enough.

Matthew 11:28-30

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light

1 Corinthians 14:33

For God is not a God of disorder but of peace.

Romans 15:13

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Philippians 4:6-7

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

 

Confessions of a shopaholic

I just have to say.....shopping is probably the best possible therapy there is.  Sure,it empties your pocket books,but so does real therapy,and at least this way you get a sweater out of it.:)

And I have amazing friends. Thank you Emily,and Julie for your encouraging comments,and to all my friends that don't comment :p I have no idea what i would do without y'all.

I don't really have a whole lot to say today,gonna be a lot less whiny,and a lot more grateful. God is good. ALL the time. And Jesus is Lord,I am saved...so say hey it's a good day :)

is not dreaming of a White Christmas

Soooo epic fail today at auditions for White Christmas. Dance audition was a total flop,and didn't even get to sing. I really ,really need to learn to be ok with this kind of stuff. I started Theater way to late in life,and what I wanted to be a fun hobby,is just a  lot of drama and politics. Grr. Better luck next time,eh?

 I really want to be happy with my life.   And I'm really not. The being content thing is something I'm working on,but I haven't achieved it yet. All my close friends live so far away,and I miss them terribly. (close friends live faraway. Oxymoron ?) I just can't stop being frustrated with everything. Bad day. 

I have got to stop running away from my problems. I need to be without fear. How does one lose fear?

AHHHHHHHHHHHH*breath*HHHHHHHHHH

Ok,so  a little honesty.

My life is a mess. I do not know what to do. There's so much I want out of life,I do have many dreams and goals,but I'm so busy working a full time job and a part time job that have crazy hours,I never seem to have time for anything else. The things most important to me often fall on the back burner. I want to prioritize,I HAVE to prioritize,but i don't even know where to begin. I feel like I've lost all control,and the only thing I'm even capable of right is work. I know when I'm supposed to start,and when I'm supposed to finish. I really could use prayer. I need guidance,and strength,and the support of friends.

And please don't worry,it's not like anything is life threatening by any stretch. I just really needed to vent. I just wish I had a little more freedom and time....time is passing me by. Fall is here,speaking of time floating by. I do love fall. I love the scents(apples,cinnamon,pumpkin),the hoodies,the colors ,the crisp feeling in the air.  I hope I can make myself enjoy fall,as I'm not sure summer even happened for me. Sigh. Some mornings,coffee doesn't even cut it.

Have a good day,and grace and peace be to you .

Musings

Have you ever had to sneeze,but instead of coming out,it implodes inside your face,making your eyes feel like they will pop right out of your head?

Music,my life,my love,my passion

I think music in itself is healing. It's an explosive expression of humanity. It's something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we're from, everyone loves music.
Billy Joel
I will praise the LORD according to his righteousness: and will sing praise to the name of the LORD most high. Psalm 7:17

Music is the most powerful expression of things that cannot be explained. Love,heartbreak,passion,praise,anger,it can all be expressed through music. Without music,this colorful world would be grey.
Playing the piano for me is a release ,an escape,a blessed experience. Singing is all about passion for me,a way to express what I could never simply talk about. I'm so grateful for the opportunities I have through music,the fact I get to teach children about the piano is one of my favorite things. I can only hope as they grow older their love for music grows along with it.
This post is really rather pointless,but what can I say....music is awesome.

Tomorrow I'll post about my second passion,skittles. (taste the rainbow)

Content but not complacent

Upon writing my previous blog,I felt the need to say that,although we do need to be content,we should never be content in just sitting around,letting life pass us by. I challenge all who may be reading this(all uhh 2 of  you? :P) to have dreams,to have goals,to have ambition. This life is precious,and all too short. My boss today went to a funeral of a 44 yr old,died of a sudden heart attack. We're all a heart beat away from eternity. Let's live our lives to the fullest,and not forget to praise the one who gave us breath to begin with.

And now,it's time for ice cream.

It is too early

Can I just start this off with how much I love coffee? Cuz I do.

I have to go to work this fine grey morning. I just want to say that right now in my life,I am learning to be content. I have a good life. I have amazing friends and family who love me,I have a good job that pays the bilss,a roof over my head,a Saviour who died for me. Yet sometimes,I get restless. It's never enough. I always want more. Isn't that the nature of humans? More ,more,more. But God,through the apostle Paul,teaches us differently in Phillipians. " For I have learned,that whatever state I am in,therewith to be content." "Godliness with contentment is great gain". "And having food and raiment let us be therewith content".  Why yes,God,I  am seeing a pattern...and Lord,I am truly grateful for the things you teach me. Thank you,Heavenly Father,for my many blessings,I deserve none of them. Thank you for my home on earth,and my home in heaven . Thank you for saving me,for dying for my sins(and rising again!). And Thank  you,Lord,for coffee.
Amen

My First Day in Blog-land

Well Hello Cyber World!

It's been about 6 years since my last confession....I mean blog.    I really don't have a whole lot to say at the moment,except that I'm excited to see how the Lord will use this,and I really hope to put some good posts out there.  Have a fun day :D