Soooo epic fail today at auditions for White Christmas. Dance audition was a total flop,and didn't even get to sing. I really ,really need to learn to be ok with this kind of stuff. I started Theater way to late in life,and what I wanted to be a fun hobby,is just a lot of drama and politics. Grr. Better luck next time,eh?
I really want to be happy with my life. And I'm really not. The being content thing is something I'm working on,but I haven't achieved it yet. All my close friends live so far away,and I miss them terribly. (close friends live faraway. Oxymoron ?) I just can't stop being frustrated with everything. Bad day.
I have got to stop running away from my problems. I need to be without fear. How does one lose fear?
You don't really... you just have to realize that God is soo much bigger than you're fear and let him deal. I have a hard time letting go too but I always remind myself that in the past God has always worked it out so I know that he has my back this time too. Sometimes I repeat to myself "Que sera sera" which means What will be will be. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you sweetie, try just to find a couple things in life that truly make you happy and when you're having an awful off day, do those things. Julie and I like to drink tea, take a bath or watch a chickflick when we can't deal anymore. It works. Just find those couple of things that you know you can truly fall back on.
Praying soo hard! Love you girl.
Mee too Laura... Being content with a life you really didn't chose your just living is hard :/ but even if you had the perfect dream life you always wanted it doesn't mean you would be content... It just means the circumstances would be nicer. Learning contentment is life long and something you always have to work at. Why didn't God just create an easy button?
ReplyDeletethanks ladies...lol @ easy button...I wish he did ! Love you both <3
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